No one missed me...

So today I was very busy - church building, chiropracter, then back to church building, then home. (We're having a youth rally this weekend, and my husband just completed the new sound/video booth - had to make sure everything was working.) I expected to have tons of emails and at least a few phone messages, but the only emails were spam and there were no phone calls.

Sarah is camping, Daniel's in Germany, Ken & Ruth are at the church building, and I rarely hear from Grace. Not to mention my family, all of whom are in TX but me...

Don't know why I expected anything - don't get many calls/emails even when I am home. Guess all my friends are busy too. And they all know I check out bogus email stories at snopes.com, so they don't send them to me very much anymore.

My cats missed me though! They want to be fed about now, and one just walked on the piano keys in an effort to get my attention. Too funny.

Guess I could talk to God also...He misses me when I'm not "present".

Progress

So, today is day 2...so far I've had 2 odwalla bars and a banana. Blood sugar is good...and I walked 40 minutes with my mother-in-law. And I think I've had 3 glasses of water. I called my friend Jennifer (also diabetic) yesterday when I was so hungry. I was concerned that my blood sugar might be too low. She said not necessarily, the hunger means my body is burning fat stores! Yeah, that's what I need. So I've decided I will embrace the hunger, knowing that it means I'm making progress.

(Odwalla bars are a good choice for a diet bar - high fiber and protein, low sugar and fat.)

Choices

Well, I've now had two doctors tell me I need to lose weight. Actually, this second one I asked for, because I know he administers a weight-loss program. I figured it might be something like a liquid diet or something, but instead it consists of this for daily intake: 8 egg whites (or eggbeaters), 3 scoops of whey protein powder (mix with water or some other nonfat liquid), 6 servings of fruit, 10 servings of vegetables, and unlimited 0-calorie foods (ie artificial sweeteners, spices, etc.).

Here's my modified daily plan: 1-2 eggs, 3-4 servings of fruit, 6-8 servings of veggies (one can = 3.5 servings), 4-6 oz of chicken, and 1 cup rice/pasta/potatoes.

Here's what I've eaten today: 2 cereal bars, 1 banana, 1 c applesauce, 1 can green beans, 3 glasses of water, 10 hershey's kisses, 1 c milk, 1 odwalla bar. It's still 2 1/2 hours until dinner time, and I'm so hungry...

I also exercised for 15 minutes (Whoo-hoo) and will do some more.

The doc also gave me Fosamax samples and told me to take 4 per day, as well as Citracal (1 per day). But the samples are for 1-weekly Fosamax, which specifically say only 1 per week. That concerns me a bit. I know I should call him for clarification, but instead I'll search online first.

If I'm able to win this health battle, it will truly be a miracle!

Surrender

This past weekend I went to a ladies retreat on "surrender." It was so good, although challenging both spiritually and physically. I do want to surrender, but I find my old self resisting, fearful of what God may ask of me. The speaker made a good point that surrender is the only way to find true freedom, because once you surrender, God can take control and do what is best. (I'm not saying it as well as she did, but hopefully you get the picture.) The speaker's name was Shyll Bowen, and she's written a book called Longing for Home.

It was good to see old friends (I've lived in the bay area for 20+ years and I've been going to Daybreak for 10 years now) and to be able to leave behind the daily cares somewhat.

Now I'm home and back to the grind. Trying anew to put God first, and self last.