This past weekend I went to a ladies retreat on "surrender." It was so good, although challenging both spiritually and physically. I do want to surrender, but I find my old self resisting, fearful of what God may ask of me. The speaker made a good point that surrender is the only way to find true freedom, because once you surrender, God can take control and do what is best. (I'm not saying it as well as she did, but hopefully you get the picture.) The speaker's name was Shyll Bowen, and she's written a book called Longing for Home.
It was good to see old friends (I've lived in the bay area for 20+ years and I've been going to Daybreak for 10 years now) and to be able to leave behind the daily cares somewhat.
Now I'm home and back to the grind. Trying anew to put God first, and self last.
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These song lyrics remind me that comfortable is not always good. I think surrendering is very hard too.
I don’t want to leave here
I don’t want to stay
It feels like pinching to me either way
The places I long for the most
Are the places where I’ve been
They are calling after me like a long lost friend
It’s not about losing faith
It’s not about trust
It’s all about comfortable
When you move so much
The place I was wasn’t perfect
But I had found a way to live
It wasn’t milk or honey
But then neither is this
CHORUS:
I’ve been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked
The future seems so hard
And I want to go back
But the places that used to fit me
Cannot hold the things I"ve learned
And those roads closed off to me
While my back was turned
The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy to discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
Caught between the promise
And the things I know
BRIDGE:
If it comes too quick
I may not recognize it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?
If it comes too quick
I may not appreciate it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?
I too have trouble surrendering sometimes, but with this new little baby, I'm learning to accept that so much is out of my control. If I want any type of peace its got to be "internal" because a wailing child storms through and disrupts everything I've ever known. I'm learning surrender at a lightening speed
Since I barely ever get to talk to you you should update your blog more often...
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